Saturday, May 31, 2014

#67: Grades and my family (part 4)


I don’t even bother with my dad’s side of the family. They are all crazier than bed bugs. My dad included in that (although I love him dearly). I don’t like visiting any of them. Ever. For the past two years, the only time I have had to visit them is when there is a death in the family. Last year it was my dad’s mom, and this year it was my dad’s uncle (his mom’s brother). I hate funerals. The really sad thing is though, I have trained myself to just isolate myself from other people’s feelings so at funerals, I don’t even cry anymore. I just stare blankly ahead and I think to myself when it is going to be over. I also like to people watch. I mean there are all these people there and I know that not all of them could have been close to the deceased, so I think they are just there to either start drama or get some free food and sweet tea. Mostly the latter.  Even when people cry at funerals, I wonder what they think that will accomplish. I know that they are incredibly sad because someone they love has died, but crying about it isn’t going to bring them back. I am sure they are looking down (or up, depending on what their final destination was) and are sad because their loved ones are crying. Maybe that’s just me being the horrible person that I am but I’m sure it would be different when I experience the loss of someone close to me.

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