Saturday, May 31, 2014

#66: Grades and my family (part 3)


I don’t like 99% of my extended family, but I am still über worried about how they see me. Ever since I was little I knew I was different from my cousins. I had different behaviors than they did and I never quite fit in. They are only a few year older than me, but it felt like a millennia between us. I never really minded being the only one in my family of my age group, but it did get lonely. Whenever we went to family reunions, I would always be alone or talking to the older people there. I never liked visiting family. I still don’t actually. The only people in my extended family I can tolerate is my mom’s sister, my mom’s uncle, my mom’s grandma and my mom’s mother. That may seem like a lot, but to put it in perspective, there are over 100 people on my mom’s side of the family that I know. There are probably more that I don’t know but I am sure that I wouldn’t like them either. I can’t end up as a disappointment to my family. I am terrified of that and this year with my grades being as bad as they are, I think that I have become a disappointment.

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